Suffer for enlightenment...saint she ain't!
Other than that...
Not one visitor by car or by phone.
Of death itself I'm unafraid.
But I quake to think I will die alone.
I ask for one last serenade.
I lay dying with no one beside me.
No one rides in my cavalcade.
Die now, I'll be alone eternally.
My last request, a serenade.
I think back to barren recollections.
I walk alone on esplanade.
Empty of any and all affection.
Now, my sole wish? A serenade.
I still cling to life, I cannot yet leave.
My health a ghastly masquerade.
But I struggle, and continue to breathe.
So I can have my serenade.
I'm dying alone with no one else there.
Not because I'm a renegade.
But because when I could, I did not care.
Now I can have no serenade.
I know that this is a futile desire.
But still I will remain unswayed.
By any pain of venom or of fire.
I will live for my serenade.
A guest arrives in black brocade.
I know it's unreal, but joyous I stay.
For now I've had my serenade.
And thus my guest, Death, can take me away.
Hmm...I may expand this later, as I think it still has potential.
I'm not sure if this is a sad poem or a sad-happy poem....